Sad Maybe?

Felt absolutely incensed and infuriated, yet I forced myself to go into a deep slumber last night. So I ended up waking on the wrong side of the bed this morning. Oh that crestfallen feel T_T

My head is just crammed full with lots of trivial thoughts I guess. The pain starts to kick in and so I've gotta start taking medicines again. Oh yea, I'm actually blogging this whilst waiting for my turn to see the doctor. An operation it is this time around; I'm not yet sure of the exact date for it though.

Call me liar for I might not be able to keep my words, but I reckon this is my last time joining this orientation facilitator thingy. No matter how hard I try to like, no it's not to like, but to fully enjoy the thing, I just can't do it. I've put my best effort to mingle with the rest, but to no avail. Weird enough. The pushing factor is not because of the students, but because of the board itself. From mere facilitators to the highest committee members and all, I don't feel I belong to the team. To my dismay, not at all. I can't feel the bonding between the members, and it exasperates me so much that I feel like "Can't wait to end this thing, really". 

P/S:

Senyum tak bermakna hati selalu gembira. Dalam hati ada taman. Kadangkala berbunga mekar, kadangkala layu tanpa ada yang mengerti. Oh, sakit pun okay. Hidup tak semestinya 1+1=2 =)

Nothing beats the adik kakak feeling with all of them. Love.